I’ll never forget my life 4 years ago. My ex and I had recently broken up, I transferred to another University, I was working part time, and I could barely make rent without my parents’ help — I was so beyond stressed. Whenever I thought things were going to get better, another terrible thing would happen.
The day I finally had it, is a day I’ll never forget. I was sick and running late for class, so I parked my car where I shouldn’t have — I was late anyways, missed my test, and when I returned my car was towed. Ha, there is nothing like crying your eyes out in a University parking lot with everyone staring. My car being towed was the final straw. I felt like everything in my life was collapsing. My finances were a mess, and I was dependent upon everyone, because any litte thing that happend could turn my life completely upside down.
I ended up calling an acquaintance of mine to pick me up, since I really didn’t know many people. He pulled up and saw me hysterically crying, he got out of the car and just hugged me. On the car ride back, he asked me what was really wrong. I spilt all my feelings out to him, about how I was sick, poor, stressed, heart broken, and at my wits end. I remember him just smiling at me and saying, “well, let’s pray about it.” He pulled into my driveway, held my hand, and prayed. Then he took his bible from the backseat, and read me Matthew 6:25-34. I remember being so shocked, because I’d never heard those words come out of a man’s voice before. I mean, I dated so called “Christian” men before, and had friends who were Christian, but outside of bible study or church, I’d never seen a man be so bold.
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?
“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
After he read me the scripture, I felt this weight lift off of me. I thanked him, went inside my house, and pulled out my bible. It had felt like it’d been forever since I’d picked it up. As I flipped through the pages, I felt such a relief. For the longest time I would feel guilty when I touched the bible or heard Christian music. It wasn’t because I didn’t believe anymore, it was because I was living life the way I wanted to. I was dating the wrong guy for years, who was obviously not a Christian or a real leader, I was drinking and partying a lot, and to be honest, I just had become a hardened selfish person who viewed my own faith as a party kill. Honestly, how stupid was I?
The bible wasnt judging me, I was judging myself. The bible was actually filled with so much grace. And who am I joking? God is present all the time, so who did I think I was hiding from? After that day, I started attending church more. It was a slow process, but the more I went to church and got closer to God, the more I didn’t care about my old lifestyle. I mean, I still had fun, drank wine, and enjoyed life… but, I slowly removed the people and things that pulled me away from God.
Honestly, this wasn’t a painful process at all, because I realized those people were making me miserable!
You’ll never meet your dream guy partying at a club or bar… What you’ll meet is a one night stand, a scum bag, or a heart breaker, and if he bought you drinks to win your heart, well, he’s probably going to try to buy your body with drinks too, because some men are just scummy! –That’s another story, I could go on for days. But, long story short, that lifestyle was bringing me more pain than happiness.
So, after this… I started to slowly change my life, and unknowingly became more and more like a Proverbs 31 woman. It unknowingly happened, because it was coming so naturally to me. I hadn’t even noticed that I had given so much of my old self up, because it no longer pleased me. Do you want to know what the best part about all of this was? I got involved with better people, which led me to an amazing job, which placed me in the environment to meet the perfect man… and then I got married.
Ya know, thinking about it now… I should probably write a letter to that guy that picked me up that day when I was down. He changed my life forever, just by one bold statement.
I really hope I can make a change in someone’s life like that, just by one simple little gesture.
God is so good– cheers!